Christ Broke Bread

There were so many that I thought had it right,
they knew of His love and showed forth His light.
I must have seen only what I wanted to see,
for those same "righteous" people have severely disappointed me.

Christ is not involved in the game that is played,
in churches and in family each and every day.
If I read the bible correctly and understood what it says
that even with the sinners Christ broke bread.

Now it's the righteous that lie - hurt- and reject,
Oh...but it was the same then.....Am I correct?
Who IS really righteous? Is it you? Is it me?
Is it you that put us down?
Or me...who just believes?

I am bleeding. Look. My blood is red as it pours forth from what seems to be blue veins.
I am breathing. Feel. Air is filling my lungs and in return is released.
I am speaking. Listen. Words with meaning will travel into the air.
I am thinking. Watch. My mind and soul are battling for the purpose of my life.

I laugh. I cry. I explode with anger. I loose all sanity in the middle of turmoil.

I am mother. Emotional. How can I make their life pleasant?
I am a partner. Fearful. How can I provide enough love to make her stay?
I am a student. Struggling. I want what is best for my future.
I am a friend. Loving. Want to provide others with an unconditional love.

I am happy. Smile. See my smile as I feel loved and secure.
I am angry. Building. Watch the boiling continue until there is an explosion.
I am sad. Faithless. What my smile turn inside out and upside down,

I am tired..........