This is a quote that I found on the Internet - it has pricked my mind and my heart. Many things and people I wish I could leave in my past. At times I wish I could erase my past or at least change it, but I realize that neither are possible. There are some hurts in my past and there are great mistakes I feel I have made. At times I tend to dwell on the past - I remember the things others have done to hurt me and the wound is opened up fresh. I think of the mistakes I have made and I beat myself up once more.
Why is it that when thinking of our past we tend to dwell on the bad? I guess it is in these moments that I easily forget the good that has come from the past 33 1/2 years of my life. Three major good things are my three children that I love so dearly. I forget that even in the strife and turmoil of emotionally excruciating situations good also came out of the depths of despair....some lessons learned....some friendships gained....some wisdom had taken root.
I may never understand WHY some of the things happened in my life, but I realize I have a choice to make. I can live in the hurts of the past or learn from them. I can continue to let hard situations of the past continue to rip open sores on my heart and soul, or I can look to healing and see only a scar.
I have made a vow to myself, just as in the quote above, to learn from the past, prepare for the future, and to live the present making the most of it . For if I decide to live today looking back and feeling hurt then tomorrow today will seem as another day of hurt and loss. If I choose to live today making the best of what I have the chance is that tomorrow I will remember good things about today....am I making sense? As for the future....oh the future! I can choose to believe that all good things will come and that all my dreams will be realized. If they don't...well then...I'll make the best of it!
