Is that You God?

Why is it that we constantly look for God to show up in only BIG ways? I know that he parted the Red Sea, and I know that he spoke through a burning bush, but are those types of appearances all that we look for? Everyday God is speaking to us. If we would "listen" closely we would see His hand in so much more than our Bible. The sun came up this morning...GOD. The birds are singing and have been fed...GOD. The kids are alive and healthy this morning...GOD.
Have you ever had God to speak gently to your heart? Just as Elijah heard him in a "still, small voice"? This happened to me just a couple of weeks ago during communion at my church. I felt Him speak and I know exactly what He said. I say that, because my HEART knows, now if I only had my "head" to understand also. For days I wondered; "Was it really God, or was I imagining things?" God in His awesome all knowing self obviously heard my doubts. The past week there have been so many ways that He has confirmed to me that He truly did speak.
WOW!
Why me? I tend to think that there is always someone out there that would do a much better job than me for God. Maybe there is someone smarter, stronger, more loving, or closer to God than I that would be better for His work. It is hard to understand what God sees in me exactly, because most of the time I don't see it myself.
Laying in my bed last night I meditated with Him for awhile. Fellowship and communion with God in the dark silent hours of early morning was sweet. "I am willing" are the words that I wanted Him to hear from my heart. "I am able" are the words that He spoke to my soul. It isn't about me, it is about letting Him use me. He is able to accomplish anything through anyone, I truly believe that. I actually have taught this concept before. Herein lies my obstacle, to believe it for myself. Yes, I am only human, a messed up one sometimes at that, BUT HE is GOD!! He has given me a fresh vision, a fresh wind and fresh fire. It is time for me to let Him work in me, through me, and for me.
He is so AWESOME!