Sleep

I have written a few lines to explain the freedom that I have felt today, but before I can explain where I am I feel the need to let you know where I have been. I am posting a poem that I wrote a few weeks back, then later tonight I will post my new lines of emotion.

Please make the sun go away
Draw the curtains
Pull down the shades.

Put the blanket over my head
Lock the bedrom door
Just leave me in bed.

I want to sleep a sleep so sound
For when I am asleep
The pain isn't around.

So please make the sun go away
Turn off the light
Alone I will stay.

In the dark alone is where I'll be
For when I am alone
Not one can hurt me.

Rejection it stings and poisons the soul
Just lay me in a box
Put me in a hole.

For when I am dead I cannot be hurt
Kick me or punch me
Try to tear me with your words.

A physical death I do not speak of
But emotionally dead
Feel no pain, feel no love.

Bitter? Maybe. What else could it be?
It has moved in to stay
Taken the tender part of me.

I want to feel love - want someone to care
But if I allow it to happen
It will take me back there.

Eventually I'll be back in my bed
Curtains down
Blanket over my head.

Please make the sun go away
I want to sleep
Pull down the shades.