Freedom

You may have an idea exactly where I have been emotionally after reading my last post. You may have been there once yourself, if so I'm sure you have felt the pain. Hopefully at some point you have also felt the joy of being set free from the pain. I have tried to express the emotions I have felt in the following text.

What a feeling to be set free, to feel the sun on my face and feel the wind blow gently through my hair. How my heart is overflowing!
I have been to the deep, to the dark lonely dungeon. The despair I felt in my heart, how it felt so cold and frightening. There was no song, no scripture, no words that could cast away the tormenting agony in this deep.
Was it a day? A month? A year? I do not know. It was longer than a day, but not a lifetime. When you can't see the coming up or the going down of the sun time seems to stand still. I remember happier times as a child, so I know I wasn't there for a lifetime. Somewhere I lost consciousness in a deep dark emotional sleep, so it had to last for more than a year.
Now! Oh the glory! The sun is felt by my pale, cold cheeks again! The shackles that I wore have fallen off! I didn't have to break them, the strength of freedom in my soul has loosed the chains. The song is back in my heart, the words are flowing gently like a river.
The scriptures have once again spoken to my soul.
The only thing left to see are the worn places from the shackles. When I see them I will be reminded of that dark, lonely place that I had ALLOWED myself to be isolated in. Never again will I be shackled. Never again will I be cold and alone. For I will not go down. No one can make me go down. I will fight for this new found freedom until the day that I die. I will deep fighting for my happiness and my love of life.